On Monday, I posted about how unorganized I've been lately. It's actually been since school started in mid-August, but because of other demands on my time, it has escalated to a point of ridiculousness. As a person whose gifting centers around organization (administration), it drives me batty to be so out-of-it.
This morning I read in my devotional about feeling guilty. Joyce Meyer wrote, "I see guilt as an illegal invader that attacks our mind and conscience, attempting to prevent us from enjoying anything God has provided for us." She goes on to say that we are not built for guilt.
Did I know this? Yes. Did I need the reminder? Absolutely.
And because I have lagged on my devotions as well (Friday through Sunday are on a different schedule and I forget to read), I have been going back and reading past devotions, so I don't miss anything. In that devotion she shares Romans 15:13, "I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit. (NLT) She goes on to say, "I realized that I had plunged into doubt and unbelief, allowing the devil to torment me with negativity, anger, and impatience. In the process, I had forgotten that believing in God and trusting His Word brings peace and hope and overcomes my weakness."
Wow. A double whammy this morning. Not only have I been steeping myself in guilt because of my own inability to focus on certain priorities, I was also angry, and impatient.
I've been praying for a few days--weeks, if I'm honest--for a schedule to help facilitate my new responsibilities. The problem comes in the fact that a lot of them are floating--doctor's appointments, grocery trips (which I just took back from my husband after 15 years), etc. It's hard to make a permanent schedule--yes, I'm one of THOSE--that's flexible. So I haven't, and consequently, I haven't been functioning at my best.
And, since I know this has become quite long--and I hate long blog posts--let's suffice it to say, I haven't made that schedule. What I have decided, however, is to spend less time on Candy Crush (gasp), and reading (DOUBLE gasp). I enjoy those two things to distraction. They were stealing large chunks of time that I don't really have at the moment. Notice I didn't say I was giving them up entirely. Candy Crush will be a reward for finishing something (or played while watching tv LOL), and reading...well, it's my time to relax and rest, so it's also going to become a reward. Finish something, read for a bit, but with a time limit.
Okay, now it's your turn. What do you do when life throws a bunch of "balls" your way and you have to do a lot of fancy juggling to make it all work?
Ps 91 (NKJV)
3 Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler, and from the perilous pestilence.4 He shall cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you shall take refuge; His truth shall be your shield and buckler.5 You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flies by day,6 nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness, nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.